How does one feel?

I have been quite caught up in the process, and how the process will effect the viewer. The problem I have been having is a very black and white prospective on how one should view the world. The question is yes, I have grown my own crop that can not simply be returned to places where I gathered it from. That would make me an agent with a purpose to distory and add to the ever growing problem. The simple act of the measure would be to burn the crop I have created. This is a common practice for eradicating the problem in restoation ecology. In practice it is effective, but it takes out the moral repercussions of our or in this case my actions. I have first created the problem, through cultivation and left out one of the most important roles in my work, the emotional impact.